This track was originally released on Ryan's third full-length album, We Fight to Heal. It has been remastered by Justin LeCuyer for its inclusion on this album.
lyrics
I swore I wouldn't write about heartbreaks again
But I find myself detached from everything
Feelings polar opposites, they swing back and forth
Like a tornado, I wreck everything I touch
And I care, I care, I swear I do
but, wow, it must not seem like it
I hurt people I care dearly for
and I just cannot stop this shit
I got stuck inside a question that I could not find an answer for
Fumbling around the room, no lights and I can't find the door
I'm knocking shit everywhere, why can't I find the switch
to lighten up the room a bit and clean up some of this
(is this even possible to fix)
(oh god I hope it's possible to fix)
It happened to me countless times before, I remember what it's like
I never thought that I would be the person on the other side
I didn't try to start the ball in motion, but I reached out my hand
I fell head over heels and now I can't even stand
Because I don't know if every decision I've made has been the right one
but I've had to trust myself and I can say
that I'm sorry, but I needed this
My only ever-lasting regret is that the triggers won't be something you forget
credits
from My New Hat,
released December 9, 2012
Written by Ryan Williams. Justin LeCuyer plays additional guitar and sings.
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